I wanted to have someone for so long,
but what happens when being alone settles in?
What happens when being alone becomes your natural state
I found someone, but after some time I crave myself and my wholesomeness
Did I condition myself too much to being self sufficient?
Or is it that I´m forcing a square into a circle?
My brain isn't wired for too much happiness, or is it peacefulness?
There has to be a balance between loving and growing.
I have big goals and wasting time doesn't feel right even if its to be leaning on rest.
I cant lean on rest. Not only my soul but my BRAIN is staggeringly stupefactions.
It wants more.
We want more. We want silence. The silence of being alone and thinking.
Maybe this is what connecting is. I already made the connection to connecting and that's why
Be as superficial as a four year old figuring out the value of a penny.
