Faraway seas

While I drift away through these unexplored seas
I don't know if im getting lost because I have crossed more waters than I was capable of before,
or is it extensions of my being that I didn't know of before.
Im recognizing myself, while the blur fades. While the actions sink. While my head catches up.

Its a dull nothingness, a boring path. The only delight is the fact to feel how it feels to walk through the ways of humanity. Like a belonging.

But me? For me its like I pushed too hard
And now im bored.

Maybe im looking for entertainment
Cause im done with purpose.

Who knows.

The weird thing is that in these depths I miss walking through them with you.
I wished it hadn't turned this way
I wish we could be true friends

In this waters, you came to my mind, what we had. I remembered how certain I was of what special meant.
You were special.
I never needed to get lost to know that. As in a way I am getting now, on purpose.

I want to expand.
Maybe evolve
Change to average?
Involute?

I miss who I was before you, until you.
You made me doubt myself and I can't get over it.
Maybe im looking for that: Me

I want to own myself
The old paths are way too traveled

Maybe I want to find myself or a new me in these new waters. Or make myself catch up. Or summon my old conscience to life from the ground. I want to shake my old neurons, the ones you beat up.
Im not sure. But yeah I only got myself a headache and a feeling that in the future the most happy and desirable thing I want is to be with myself. I can't stand the rest, they only look for themselves and care for what they have to say. Its all about what you can take than what you can give, for them.

I realize I have also been getting tired of giving. So im out, taking my share. Sounds intelligent, what the world asks of you, huh?

Im done, I don't mind the circumstances, not the game, if about what I want and if its the same, then let it be... Boring.

Im so hard to please.